The last 3 days....

I have been ridiculously busy the last 3 days and haven't blogged which I hate because I'm bound to leave stuff out! I will try my best. I got through a WHOLE weekend without drinking! Now I know I just made myself sound like a true alcoholic but I'm not. I do however like to kick back some drinks with friends on the weekend or have a couple glasses of wine with the hubs. Not ONE drink and I can honestly say it wasn't that painful. I do find the way people react to my non drinking slightly humorous! It's almost a crime to say "I'm not drinking". This must be what recovering alcoholics feel like once thrown back into the mix of things!

Moving on... This "lifestyle" can get pretty damn expensive and it takes a lot of prep work. The days of grabbing a box out of the kitchen and calling it dinner are gone but the way I feel after a week of doing it, it's totally worth it! I just feel good. ;) I'm learning what works as far as meals go and it is getting easier. I should note that I lost 7 freaking pounds this week! 7! 7! That's enough to keep me going. I haven't felt super deprived and its amazing how much you can eat for so little calories when you eat "real" food!

My only beef with Paleo so far is every time I try to research something I find conflicting info. Some people drink wine, eat SOME dairy, eat chocolate as long as its dark, and I have even seen some calling potatoes Paleo friendly! Those are all no no's right? Right? There are some super strict Paleo ers as well who frown upon even eating fruit!  It's crazy and at times I'm so confused but I'm just gonna keep on keepin on. ;) Till my next rant..........

Days 3 and 4

Yesterday was pretty awesome! I guess I had a good Paleo day ;) I'm pretty sure it's because I started my day with an awesome Paleo friendly smoothie that I concocted! It was the bomb people, THE BOMB! I really didn't miss anything!

Fast forward to today....
Have you ever been to Fresh Market? I LOVE that place....until Paleo! That place was torture. We went in to get these awesome burgers to grill. Standing all excitedly at the meat counter ready to order the burgers, I look down and notice they ALL have some type of cheese in them. *sigh* I turn to J and say "but..but, there's noth THAT much cheese in them." He looks at me and promptly says "it's not Paleo"  Yay for J! I would have bought those burgers and ate them! Feeling victorious as I walk out with sirloin burger, iceberg lettuce, and almond butter, I walk over to those girls at the Girl Scout stand selling those freaking delicious cookies and purchase a box that the kids had been begging me to buy. I hand the box to them and tell them to enjoy!

I got this. ;)

Happy Valentines to Me.... Uh NOT

Day 2...

Lets see.. its Valentines Day and I can have NO chocolate and well quite frankly that just saddens me. I have eaten a ton of fruit trying to curb my sweet tooth but really Im still dreaming of the Godiva someone gave me earlier that I promptly got rid of. Yes, you read it right I GAVE AWAY Godiva, its un American I know. Ive also turned down the cookies, cakes, doughnuts, and brownies that my nice coworkers made for Valentines Day. They taunt me everytime I have to get one of my patients. Oh, and my lunch.... sucked. I didnt want to eat grilled chicken salad 2 days in a row!!!

Yes People.... Day 2 sucks!!!!
I got this.. I got this.... I got this.... Repeat after me and help in trying to convince me I got this. :)

30 DAYS PALEO... HERE WE GO!!!

Ive decided to do it!! Im jumping on the Paleo bandwagon and Im pretty damn excited about it (keep in mind this is day 1). I have lost about 20-25 lbs but my body is still not where I want it to be so in a last ditch effort I thought.. why not? As a serious carb addict, Im pretty convinced this will be the hardest damn thing I have ever done but Im up for a challenge AND the hubs is doing it  with me!!! YAY, for a support network!!!

Im not feeling too deprived at this moment but again.. its day 1. Heres what Im thinking I will miss
1. Diet Coke/ Coke Zero. (Im a one a day drinker)
2. Creamer in my coffee. Today I substituted with Almond milk. Its doable but definitely NOT the same.
3. Chocolate.. because who wouldnt miss chocolate?
4. Alcohol on the weekends.
5. Sandwiches...

But I got this..... Stay tuned for bitching and hopefully amazing results. :)

Just some thoughts....

What happened in CT is heartbreaking. Losing a Child is in my opinion the worst thing that could happen to a parent and I'm deeply saddened for these families. With that being said, we the people are the problem. It's not guns and it's not because we don't allow god in our schools. We as people have abandoned morals,values, honesty, kindness, and love. Parents have become lazy. We no longer teach our children the value of life, respect for others, and the importance of giving back to society. Instead we teach them to love things not people, that more is always better, and that people who are different are somehow less than.

What can we expect in a world that has lost it's values? We can expect a world that's deeply in debt, a world that is always in conflict, and people who will act irrationally because they don't value another human beings life or their own for that matter. We are not vigilant. When tragedy strikes due to one persons hand, we find there were always signs that lead up to the act. The person was withdrawn, a loner, etc,etc. It is our job as a society and as parents to be aware of the signs and try to intervene in some way. If your child shows signs of being a loner, withdrawn, or "different", it's your job to get to the root of the problem whether you do it personally or professionally.

I feel sorry for my kids; they have far too much to worry about. When I was a kid, we worried about getting grounded for a bad grade or being out past curfew. Kids today are worried about the world ending, zombie apocalypses, and whether or not their school is safe from shooters. It's sad! If we as Americans don't wake the fuck up and realize the real root of the problem we will be doomed. We as people will take each other out, our country will no longer be considered a powerhouse, and we will continue to be victims of such heinous crimes. I think it's time to change.... Really change.

Semper Paratus... Always ready

Hurricane Katrina, Southeast Asia Tsunami relief, Drug interdiction, Migrant interdiction; the Coast Guard is always ready. In times of disaster and tragedy, they are often first on the scene. When stranded at sea, you can be assured that these men and women are doing their best to rescue you. They are ALWAYS READY. 

In the wake of this weeks tragic helicopter crash, the men and women of the Coast Guard are ready. They are ready to bring their missing brothers home. They are ready to fly day and night. They are ready to comfort each other in the midst of tragedy. They are ready to do what they do best... they are ready to work together as a family.

I am not your typical military wife, I do not base my worth or identity on my husband's career. His rank is not my rank. His time in service is not my time. I am my own person, I have my own career. I have done my own time, with that being said, words cannot express how proud I am to be a Coastie wife. The Coast Guard knows what family means. Its a special family, a family chosen not made. A family who has come to my rescue during holidays when I  missed  my immediate family. A family that came to my husbands rescue when his dad was on life support. A group of people who are always ready to take you in as part of their family.  I am truly moved by the way they come together.

My heart hurts for those families who's loved ones are missing. I cant imagine the pain they are going through right now. I only hope that they find comfort in knowing they are surrounded by this gigantic family. A family who is always ready to rescue them by listening, by comforting, and by just being there. I love my Coast Guard family!!!! 

Parents Who are Proud of Themselves!!

Why do parents feel the need to log onto facebook to post what great parents they are? I'm seeing this more and more, and quite frankly I'm disgusted. Anyone who has to announce "I'm the greatest parent in the world" isn't. Great parents don't know they're great, in fact great parents often feel like they're never great enough. I will brag all day long about my children's accomplishments but you will NEVER see ME post a comment about what a great mom I am. 

Don't get me wrong, I think I'm a decent mom and I've met way worse than I, but I am not foolish enough to think I'm great. Every night after my children are in bed I think about whether I was a  "good enough" mom for the day. Did I really listen to them when they told me about their day or was I distracted by my phone, the dogs, or the dirty house? Some days I'm fortunate enough to say I have listened, other days... not so much. Everyday I reflect back on whether or not a showered them with enough hugs, kisses, and I love you's. Some days I'm satisfied and some days I'm not.  Every night before I fall asleep I vow to do better. I vow to be a better mom tomorrow than I was today. When the reality is........ I will never feel like I have been a perfect parent. Its just an impossible task.

That's why these "bragging parents" kill me. They don't brag about the kids, nope, they brag about their parenting skills. I can say that those I know personally, are bragging out of insecurity. One parent goes on and on to brag how he is a single dad and has raised his daughter when the reality is his daughter has only lived with him for 6 months and up until that point he's never been a stable fixture in her life. He was too busy screwing around on her mother. Gimme a break; get over yourself! The only people who can attest to your parenting skills are your children! If your children become well rounded, well mannered, successful adults who know how to live, love, and laugh, then and only then, may you give yourself a pat on the back. However, that pat would be much more meaningful if that child you raised was the one giving it to you; that my friends means you not only have done your job, but you did it awesomely!